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Im back!

2005-10-08T17:08:00.000+08:00

Muhahahhahahahahhaa.
Ahems.. sry.

Went shopping for awhile at bugis with Sammie yesterday. Manage to buy some stuff haha.
Visited Joanna at her store at Bugis Street and chatted for awhile.
Then i went down to Orchard to meet the guys for dinner and some pool.
Saw this stupid 'ghost' outside cine.

After that we all went down to Ling's fren pub beside club Momo.

Hmmmss there was Kenneth, Fiona, GC, Ben, Jm, Des, Dex, Alvin, Cream, Kimberly and Lingz.
We all drank alot. haha. I think we all drank like a total of 8 jugs. I myself drank like 6 or more mugs cus keep losing stupid games.

Bungalow Visit

2005-03-13T14:59:00.000+08:00

Visited a bungalow yesterday which my uncle wanted to buy.
It was worth around 7 million and the land was quite big.
Omg it was super nice.
The gate was open so we drove up the long slope to the house.
The entrance was like what u would see in The Bachelor.
Went to the 15m pool at the back and it was immediately my favorite part of the house.
It was surrounded by super tall pine trees which means they will have all the privacy in the world.
there was so much space and the pool was sort of connected to a rectagular room in the house.
Balconies on the second floor also overlooked the whole area.
The first thing i thought of was if my uncle really bought the house,
I could hold like super cool parties!
What i always dreamt of doing.
Anyway its hard to describe the house.
Hopefully i can invite all of you over to party together next time haha.
Lets pray.

Back

2005-02-23T14:16:00.000+08:00

heys finally im back.
Im not going to update u guys on what happened for this whole period cus theres just too much to say.
Anyway been going to the gym and swim,
Part of some plan of mine.
Swam 4 times last week and once yesterday and maybe today.
Anyone wanna join me?
haha.
Anyway miss alot of people.

Just a short update,
Looking forward to a successful picnic at Palawan on SAT.

Take care everyone!

Finishing

2005-02-03T23:01:00.000+08:00

Took the OM test today.
Was much easier then expected.
Went home and rested for awhile then went swimming at the club with Edwin and Mario.
Swam till 5 and then went to eat super delicious ice-cream at ice3.
Got pretty waitress also.
Then later got 2nd serving at Chomp Chomp.
It was around 7 when we dropped off something at Mario's house and took the MRT to orchard to shop.
Finally got home at 10.30.
Woo tired.

Summarised.

Tmrw's the last paper.
Good luck everyone.
And then party hard!

Exam?

2005-01-30T22:46:00.000+08:00

NSA test on friday ended at 5.
Went to KAP to eat dinner with Kenneth after that,
Had a chat and reached home at around 7.
Slacked around awhile then met up with Dexter and Ming to club at ChinaBlack.
Reached home at around 5 and bathed and slept.

Woke up at 12 on Saturday.
Went to meet parents to shop in Orchard.
Bought 2 tshirts and a shirt.
Went Sim Lim to get my new cool Digicam,
Woo!
Then went home and bathed and went to meet 5 bros and headed to orchard again.
Cineleisure.
Played billiard for awhile den decided to head to Chinablack.
But the queue was long and it seemed full,
Somemore the bouncer show us attitude,
So we went to Coccolatte.
We supposed to get Vip entrance and free but that friend didnt come.
Anyway we payed the $12 and partied till we were tired like hell.
Ming's father fetched us home at 4 a.m.
Bathed and slept.
Woke up at 12 today because Jek ask me whether wanna join him alvin and allan at sentosa with their colleagues.
I reallyyyy wanted to cus i might be going Bali with them in March but i decided i had to sacrifice my day for studying.
Ming also asked me to shop with him and Dex.
SHOPPING!!!
Of course i want!
But...
Sigh...
In the end i slept and woke up at 4 and read through once and met Bebe nearby.
Missed her.
Just saw her home.
Anyway i have to start studying now if not really cannot make it.

Work hard!

Argh

2005-01-26T01:31:00.000+08:00

Went to meet Eileen on Monday.
Shes like my precious sister aha.
Havnt seen her in like 4 years?
Though we keep in close contact.
We met at bishan,
The place we last saw each other.
I treated her to Cartel haha.
We had a nice chat there,
Caught up with everything.
Then we went to take neoprint to see how much we have changed from the last time we took at the same place.
Will post them on my friendster soon.
After that i called up jek to come play soccer with my usual soccer clique nearby.
Played till around 11 ?
Haha i went to fetch jek from his house.
Not with a car,
With my bmx haha.
I pumped my tyres at the nearby petrol kiosk first.
Halfway he took turns to ride me there.
It was cool if u didnt have to ride.
Went home was tired and slept at 3 plus.

Tuesday woke up and slacked around till 4 plus.
My brother invited me to Benjamin's good pal's birthday.
Found out later that it was Alvin Lee.
Wanted to talk to him after a long time and wanted to know more people so i went.
Didnt regret,
Knew more people,
Ahems.
And drank abit and talked guy talk for awhile.
The ride home was fun.
Everyone was dancing to Retro with the window's down and wind blowing into the car.
Fetched them home one by one.
Total count of people in the car:
4 girls
4 guys
Yes,
8 people haha.
2 sat in the boot while 4 squeezed in the back.
I tried to fly a kite out of the side window.
Back home now and crashing soon.
Ciao.

Study? Not

2005-01-24T02:55:00.000+08:00

Woke up at around 12 p.m and met jek for lunch.
Ate at mcdonalds first,
The Curly fries and ice milo.
Then went the hawker to eat mee pok.
Then went heartland mall to eat ice cream from the new stall.
Thats life!
After that we went to the country club to play.
After pool and bowling he went home first while i went to eat dinner at Hard Rock,
But it was full.
It was to celebrate my father's birthday.
Ended up at Forum's Jade's Place or something.
Some Chinese Restuarent.
Ate from like 7 plus to 9 plus.
After that went back to the club to meet another group of friends.
Played billiard and pool for awhile then proceeded to play billiard at Hougang Plaza cus the place closes at 11 p.m.
Played till around 1 then my brother drove us to GrapeVine to watch the Arsenal match haha.
Exciting.
Watch finish already went nearby kopitiam to eat then chionged back home.

Sorry sentence structure abit boring.
Lazy to blog ar haha.
Take care.

Have to start studying tommorow.

But i meet my precious mei first.

Shag Episode2

2005-01-22T18:08:00.000+08:00

Wed - ChinaBlack
Thursday - ZouK
Friday - Slept just one hour yes.. one hour after i reached home from ZouK.
Woke up,
Got Ready
And made my way to habourfront.
Sentosa was crowded today.
The sun was at its best.
Well we,
The five of us,
Kun Lin, Gc, Jason, Kenneth and me,
Found our spot underneath a coconut tree and started tanning immediately.
The sun was painful.
We stayed at Sentosa from 11 to 6.
Got to know some new friends and met some old friends.
It was a very successful trip :).
Plan it to be better next time.
Bringing alcohol and ice.
Inspired from the ang mos.

Well it was 6 and we went to change.
Met up with Yiwen.
Jason went home so the 5 of us went marina to eat steamboat.
How long did we spend there huh?
2 to 3 hours just eating haha.
Alot of laughther haha.
Made our way back at around 10 ++ ?
Haha it got a little crazy in the bus.

I reached home at around 11.40.
I quickly bathed and taxied my way to Cine for kbox till 5 with bros.
I tot i wasnt that tired,
But i slept while singing at 3.30 till it ended at 5.
Slacked around with some of Allan's friends till 6 plus.
Dragged myself back home.
Bathed and got my wonder sleep.

I completely cocked up something.

Got to study soon.

Shag

2005-01-20T14:48:00.000+08:00

School ended at 4 yesterday after make up lesson.
Which means no school for today and tmrw woo.
Went back home and played soccer 6 to 9 a.m with Gc and friends.
Then rushed back home bathed again and made my way to ChinaBlack.
We were deciding whether to go to ZouK or ChinaBlack haha.
I finally decided on ChinaBlack.
We didnt regret haha.
Danced till our legs litterally had no energy left.
We 'Chionged' till 3 when it ended.

Everything is aching today.

Dex

2005-01-16T14:16:00.000+08:00

Today was dexter's birthday.
So we headed down to ChinaBlack to PAAaaRrttttYYyy.
It was hot yea.
Party party party party till 4 plus.
Haha did some embarrassing thing dunt wanna say.
K larh after that everyone cabbed home then I headed to dex place eat first then slack around,
But cannot tahan sia.. too tired already so went home while he watch Naruto DVD on my lappy.
Pai seh ah bro too tired to get out of my bed haha.
You know the feeling.

Erm what am i looking forward to?
Cutting the long queues at ZouK or ChinaBlack this Wednesday.
And partying again.
Woo.

Anyone wanna come?

OH yar!
I got alot of shopping khakis for new year already!
SHOP SHOP SHOP!
Im an addict!
WOo.

Wants

2005-01-14T01:53:00.000+08:00

Ok erm since i am too lazy and bored to blog about events i shall do something fun and create a list of my current wants:

1. Keep my studies on track and projects organised.
2. Keep clubbing with my bros.
3. Meet my mei. ( haha )
4. Be committed.
5. Be even more sensitive.
6. Care more.
7. Make more friends and cherish all the people around me!
8. Keep gyming with Ed the muscle man and frens.
9. Keep swimming with Ed the muscle man and frens.
10. Be consistent
11. Tan up

Now for the vain part...

11. Trim my brows? (lol, inspired by Jek the pox)
12. Keep my face clean.
13. ReDye and ReStyle my hair.
14. Keep clean and neat.

Now for my shopping list...

15. Get a new sleek pant.
16. Get a couple of nice shirts.
17. Get a t-shirt or two.
18. More accessories
19. Shoes?

Basically everything? Haha and more! Ok i better stop.

And lastly...

20. Work on my business with my close friends.

Anyway just watched alfie today and it make me think alot.
Go watch it, its a nice show.
Especially for people who hardly get commited in any relationships a.k.a flirts.
You will find alot of things similar to your current thinking.
May i point out that sometimes it is just part of a person's character that causes this to happen.
Its not completely his/her fault.
The 'flirt' dont really mean to harm the other person or play with them.
They just get sucked into it time and time again.
But people can change haha.
Watch Alfie.
It might change your life.

Finally signed up for my Surf Up VIP card too haha.
Excited.
Maybe Coccolatte,
Zouk
Or Chinablack ones soon?
Bleah.

Ok time to work out.

Love.cK

2005

2005-01-02T14:44:00.000+08:00

And so i went to the Sentosa Countdown party.
It was super dissapointing haha.
The music sucked.
No Foam Party.
No Fireworks.
Went home at around 3 a.m.

I needed a good party!
And i got it the next night!

So there was this new club in Singapore called Coccolatte.
Went there with a gang of 10+.
Bros.
The ambience was nice on the first floor and hot on the second.
The music rocked.
The people rocked.
And the mood was just there for a fun time dancing.
The decorations were nice too.
And it was not that that crowded.
And the drinks were nice?
Haha.
Anyway check it out.
http://www.coccolatte.com

Everyone was quite high but not drunk.
Some drank burning drinks haha.
After that slacked around for awhile and headed to xin wei's house.
Big house haha.
Everyone was molesting the whole house and admiring abit before settling down.
They played mahjong but for awhile only cus super tired everyone haha.
Played abit of guitar also.
Headed home with Bebe while everyone was sleeping.

Woo!

Thick 'n' Thin

2004-12-29T15:06:00.000+08:00

Finally got the tickets for the Sentosa Countdown Party haha.
So let me see whose going SO FAR:
Lq and frens (9)
Me and frens (5)
Well more to come.
Gonna be fun fun fun.
Anyway short blog today.
Time to do some work.
Hopefully.

Happily Sick

2004-12-25T21:58:00.000+08:00

School ended at 12pm Haha it was christmas eve.
Actually wanted to join Iris they all for ice skating and steamboat.
But I meeting my friends already.
Anyway my brother fetched his friends home first,
Then fetched lazy Ifah allll the way back to her house,
Then finally fetch me home to get ready.
Met they all at around 6 and we wanted to get the countdown tickets for everyone,
But the stupid Sistic already closed.
So no choice we went to get movie tickets then went to Edo sushi to eat.
Bebe,LQ,Yanyan,Her friend and me for now haha.
Wah ate until exploded haha.
3 more came later to join us for KBox.
Countdowned then went around the streets shooting snow at people's faces.
Got super dirty and wet and cold.
then at 2.15 we went to watch our movie.
Kung Fu Hustle.
They all laughed like hell larh,
But i was sick with fever and stuff so didnt really enjoy the show.
After that everyone went home.
Finally reached home at 8 a.m like that and bathed and had a VERY good sleep till 6 pm.
Now having fever cough flu and alot of diseases.
Anyway had a memorable christmas and erm looking forward to the countdown party at Sentosa.
Haha.
Time to do some work and catch up with studies.

Crazy?

2004-12-19T23:22:00.000+08:00

Im sorry but i already forgot about what happened this few days cus theres too many things.
Ill just create a list of things i remember:

ZouK on Wed ( Yes yes it was a weekday and i had school at 9 a.m the following day, didnt regret it though, i had the best club of my life so far with my bros and friends and Bebe who joined us later on. ) Total i think 10 plus people were there? Our gang was the coolest okae. Like circus like that somemore with all the drunk people dancing so funny haha. Got earthworm got different styles of dancing. Us and strangers were entertained. And we were shouting and crazy all the way woo!

Basically the whole week i spent sleeping during lectures and classes cus of lack of sleep. AHEMS.

Erm went out after school on Friday. Owed Bebe a treat at Sakae cus of minesweeper. Then after that met alson LQ Jub and 2 other friends for movie. Under the Sunrise ? something like that. After that i met up with Dexter and the three of us went down to WuBar to celebrate a birthday. Reached home at 4 ? Not sure haha. Was quite dizzy that day. Scared Bebe.

Sat Uh huh. Woke up late. Went to eat dinner with her again and then KBoxed ill 11 p.m. Watched Shutter ( my 2nd time ) and then slept in a playground on top of a 'rope mountain' if theres such a thing till got bus again. Haha it was super fun. Still got police come disturb. Took down particulars. Then i took bus back but in the end, end up dunno where? And finally took cab back and slept at 10 a.m. Woke up at 5 p.m on Sunday. Now not blogging already cus mother call me go eat Prata. Woo.

Anyway bought all the christmas materials i need. Wanna go shopping tmrw. Tuesday meeting Ed and Pam and maybe his gf. Know them like forever haha. Very long never see them.

Doro! See u soon!

Ifah Return me my CDs! haha. Joking larh no rush.

Wednesday clubbing with my bloody goody sec friends! ZouK of course. Or CB ? no ? Anyway it will be a blast. Alot of club Vs will be broken haha.

Blogging again very soon.

Love

2004-12-14T16:14:00.000+08:00

What is love? No one knows.
To me love is the unconditional devotion to someone,
Arising from the admiration of each other's inner beauty.
I have been through alot during the last 2 months.
Felt some pain I never knew existed.
I am ok now.
Thanks to me and my friends.
But I must admit,
It was tough.
I now have all the respect for love.
I actually have decided to give up on it,
Cus i just dunt want any similar things to happen .
Until that special person comes by and make me believe in it again.

Anyway went to Zouk that day with 5 bros.
Went to the bottom dancefloor after seeing how boring the top floor was.
Wah went in only get sprayed by this cold smoke thingy.
Super fun haha.
Before that i was at this hip-hop fest with Ifah and Jason.
Stand from 6p.m till 12a.m right in front of the stage.
Got to see Taufiq perform Me and Mrs Jones.
Stupid Paige left early.
After it was over i chiong back in a cab and changed into a whole new set of clothes and taxi my way to ZouK.
Finally reached home at 7a.m in the morning.
Super duper shag.
Didnt even lock the gate or door haha.
Kenna scolded.
Zzz.

Did alot of stuff also,
But too lazy to blog.
In class now,
Time to get to work.
Take care!

Party

2004-10-24T04:25:00.000+08:00

Exams are over.
I shud be passing all the papers.
SHUD be, just afriad of Blaw.
So this is what i did after the final paper.

Wooo wrote finish my final question and headed down to orchard with GC, CE, and Kenneth.
Ate at sakae.
Buffet.
OK BOTTOM LINE.
It was the most killer meal in my life.
All together we ate over a hundred plates.
All of us eat until we are 99.999% to puking.
Our table was messed up lols.
But it was quite funny larh haha,
Had fun.
After that they headed home and i went to meet JC.
Supposed to eat Sakae but the queue was too long so i suggested heading to 7-eleven to grab a little alcohol.
Headed to the park and drank,
Then slacked around in her house for awhile before meeting SY at s-11.
I watched them eat,
I was still so )^&(*#@ full.
After dilly and dallaying we went to play billiard haha.
SOMEONE kept losing hahahah.
K larh but not bad hit in a few balls.
Then i saw them off and waited awhile at hougang superbowl for my brother to fetch me to wait for Jek and friends.
It was already pass midnight.
After everyone was in the car,
FINALLY,
We went to cineleisure to play billiard till 5.00a.m,
That was when it closed.
Then we fetched everyone home and headed home to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
Phew.

NEXT day.
Woke up at 4.00 p.m and chatted with a few friends online till 6.00.
I was told to get ready for my grandfather's birthday dinner at ECP,
Jumbo restuarent.
It was a buffet and i once again stuffed myself up with food and salmon(thick).
After that met the babe for prata before going home/rushing home at 11.30 to prepare for clubbing at MOJO techno club.
Total we fetched 6 people in the car and headed to the club.
The crowd was more matured larh and more gangsters kind? ( Cus its techno )
The dance was more bengish but i managed to grab hold of a few moves.
Danced for awhile and drank alot.
Jek brought me to try out 2 flaming drinks.
Omg it was like fire going through my body and in the end settled in my stomach,
BURNING.
After awhile he went missing lol and everyone was searching for him.
Found him outside lying down beside the road.
He was K'Oed.
Luckily i sat down and took the blow of the drinks slowly,
He still go and dance.
We went home and i brought Jek to his house before heading back.
Bathed and here i am.
SHAGGED.
Roughly what i did till now larh.
Many things up ahead for the week only.
Gotta grab some rest SOON.
Ciao.

Sleepy

2004-10-16T14:06:00.000+08:00

Too busy or lazy to blog last few days.

Took my first real exam yesterday, Marketing.
I will pass it.
Not sure if i will score though.
*Kun Lin thanks for filling up the blanks in the notes for me ( unlike some Sis who run away =p ? *kidding ).
Slept only half an hour, again.
Felt like going home to sleep immediately after the paper but,
Somehow ended up in Orchard haha.
Played billiard with Perry and Kenneth,
After eating lunch at Long John Silver.
Went to visit Joanna for awhile,
Yi Shun was in the stall,
With his female friend (gf?) trying out clothes.
Said hi.
The billiard counter girl at cineleisure was like so nervous to see kenneth?
Haha i think she like him.
Got this new haircut too,
Not bad lar.
Finally got to know her name,
Ah Min.
Found a 3210 in E-Games and it is with me now.

So Perry went off.
Kenneth and me combed the whole orchard and shopped.
I bought a Belt and a long sleeve shirt from Wisma.
Ended up in Pacific Plaza after eating Sakae.
Saw Ah Ling! Haha.
She was like meeting her friend but we chatted with her for quite awhile.
Date Set: Friday ZouK after final paper haha.

Went to meet Jac for 'dinner'.
In the end watched movie till 11 haha.
'Watched' Ouija Board.
SEEMed quite scary lar.
Erm.. ***.5/***** again.
But plus company *****/*****.

Currently Listening to Sum 41's New CD.

Lalala.

War

2004-10-12T01:16:00.000+08:00

Yes!
Exams are here!
So tmrw is erm.. let me think.
OH YA! MWA paper.
So i havnt started a damn thing,
And i am going to play billiard.
YES now ?!?! 1.30 a.m
Got to sneak out of the house.
Crazy crazy.
Anyway i can help Jek with his studies since he cant print out the notes.
Hopefully i will get enough sleep for tommorow's test.
Going to do some serious shopping soon.
And serious, erm, fun.
Got alot of catching up to do too.
Miss alot of peps.
Oh yarh and need some new tan.
BASICALLY ALOT OF STUFF TO DO.

Watched The Exorcist.
Rating : ***.5/*****
Ok la, *****/***** if i plus in my company K. *wink

Currently Listening to the tunes of:
Alicia Keys - If i ain't got you
Ashlee Simpson - Love makes the world go round
Jay Sean - Eyes on you
Usher - Confessions pt.2

Get to me if you want any songs yea?
I have alot of nice songs cus i have a good music bot ( hahaha ).

Love love love.

Rekindled

2004-10-10T01:56:00.000+08:00

Met Charis and Yihui and today with Jac.
Slacked around at Coffee Bean ?
Been a long time but we kinda clicked.
Glad to have been able to know them again and better this time.
Oh yarh i was really listening to some of the stuff Yihui was talking about.
Really meaningful even though i thought i knew alot already.
Enlightenment!
Rekindled some memories later on and stuff, when we were in our younger days ?
Ate with Gary, his gf, Leslie and Bryan also.
It was pleasant. Haha.

Today i kinda realise that i actually took my friends for granted in the past.
And because of that i lost many.
But i learnt my lesson of course.
I love my friends now! haha
Im nothing without them.

We went to drink later.
I didnt drink much though, cus i have to make sure i can fetch them home.
My dear Jac.. drink so much.
You take care k.
Hope you are feeling better.
Sleep early.

In Da Club

2004-10-09T14:52:00.000+08:00

I went clubbing yesterday.
At Phuture.
Too bad ZouK was full.
Still it was a nice place.
It was Jamie's BD.
OMG IT WAS SO SHIOK.
Kenneth got drunk. ( Haha)
Jek and the many many others went crazy.
I was enjoying myself all the way.
The jugs.
The pops.
The dancing.
At least i can relax for a few hours and forget all troubles and stuff.
Ill definately go again.
SOON.

Currently inspired for a change of hair and wardrobe.

Epilogue

2004-10-07T01:18:00.000+08:00

Winter has passed.
My life is changed.
But I will be here waiting for it again.

Roses

2004-10-06T01:10:00.000+08:00

I had a field of roses.
They even glowed.
It created the most magnificent scenery.
Heaven.
But then i did not care for them,
And day by day the beds of roses withered away.

Weeks passed.
Months passed.
I started to regret what i have neglected.
I never knew how important it meant to me.
How the roses have coloured my life.
Without them,
I am just living a life of emptiness.
Now,
I realise that.

I wondered for years.
Will i get another chance?
Will i get to see a big field of roses again,
In my life.
Sunflowers,
Tress,
Lilies.
All i have passed by.
None of them.
The magic that i felt before,
I long to experience again.

Then.
One day.
I stepped on the garden.
And there it was,
A stalk of rose.
Grown from a seed that seemed to drop from the heavens.
It was perfect.
Maybe even too perfect.
Am i given another opportunity?

I know what i wanted now.
It was too clear.
I showered the rose with all the love that i have.
Hoping that it will glow again.
It did.
The sight in front of me bought back memories of long ago.
I know that the years of waiting has paid off,
And in the process i have learned alot.
I am still the farmer i used to be,
Just better.

Weeks passed.
I gave my all.
But i feel as if the roses are not glowing as bright as they used to be.
Maybe they are?
Or maybe i am just imagining things.
And i started to wonder.
What the roses actually feel.
Needed to know everything.
No secrets.
Even if it would hurt me.
I need to know.
I wish i did.

I love my roses.
When i wake up,
As i go about my daily activities,
I care about their well-being,
I miss them,
I try to care for them even better each day.
But i wonder.
If my roses were a person,
Would they treat me the same way i treat them?
I hoped so.

I can hardly live a day without seeing my roses.
I can hardly live a day without talking to them.

I will do anything to keep my roses glowing.
Anything to prevent them from dying.
Anything.

But i need to know.

Everything.

I know right now that you have other priorities.

I will accomodate.

But.

Are you for me as i am for you.

~

cK

And

2004-10-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

What are we now ?

Where

2004-09-30T23:18:00.000+08:00

Here. Here. Or Here.

Confessions

2004-09-28T19:28:00.000+08:00

My heart is in agony.
It feels as if a thousand nails have been put through it,
And each day it gets even more unbearable.
-
I have been bottling up to much.
Up until now in my life,
I would never have imagined,
That this sort of pain existed.
I always thought i was strong enough to withstand anything.
I was wrong.
I am breaking,
broken.
-
I have seen a few shooting stars in my life,
And everytime i see one,
I wish for you.
-
I am confused.
I am afriad.
I am crying inside.
It is not seeing u with another girl,
Or guy,
That kills me.
It is not knowing what you want,
Or if what you are doing now is good for you.
If u ever find someone that can make u the happiest girl in the world,
I will give you up.
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I know i will never find someone else like you.
I know i will be lost without you.
I know i will do anything for you.
Even if it means giving up my dreams.
I will gladly do.
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At this point of time i think i can consume 10 bottles of vodka.
But you told me not to drink.
I will have to find another way to drown my sorrows.

Actually i am already lost.

I have no idea what i should do.

I could try to forget you,

Impossible,

As i would have lost my meaning in life.

Thus ive decided to wait.

A month,

A year,

Maybe 2,

Or even till i die.

Until i get a chance to prove my love for you,

I shall wait.

I am ill.

I can hardly breathe.

This is too much for me.

Too much to handle.

For now i shall pick up your textbooks and study my ass off hah,

I wunt stop until i get u a single digit point for your Os,

So you can enter the JC of your dreams.

I am probably top 10 in the World right now that is suffering the most.

But i know that in the end,

It will all be worth it.

My first love.

My last love.

My only love.

You.

Every single word came from my heart.

I know i am not the best of poets.

Just trying to release some agony.

I need tissues.

A Dream

2004-09-22T10:50:00.000+08:00

nah it was like we were together and all.. and i think we got into a cabin, but not sure what it is exactly and we kissed. but it wasnt a normal kiss, it was like perfect and .. right ? haha thats it! somehow i only remembered that part CLEARLY. Hey hey the kiss was as far as it went dunt wry, didnt rape u or anything.